Well let me start off by saying things have been hectic here the past week or so.

I have had vender's pull out from the fair and have had new ones call me for spots so i have been going crazy with that since it is only a month away.

I have started my new class for school and i am already behind with work. I have a 2-3 page paper that was due last Sunday and i still have yet to get it in. Plus I have another 2-3 page paper and a 3-4 paragraph page due For class this Sunday by midnight CT.

I have been swamped with house work and doctor appointments again this week with my mom I am starting to think i may have taken on more than i can handle right now and in another 4 weeks i have my next set of classes starting and then I am in two classes at time which still only last for 5 weeks at a time.

But on a good note Hubby has still been supportive and helpful with all of it. We have had a few moments that were rocky again but we are working them out. SO things are still going pretty well with us.

I am happy and so is he and that i guess is what matters most right now and We know we both love each other and we are also starting to have a better understand of each other and how we feel about certain things. I just wish it didn't take us to almost destroy our marriage to figure it out.

We have even agreed to try to go out more as a couple if not just by ourselves every now and then. Although I am a little nervous about going out by myself and leaving him home alone with the kids and his computer. I told him right out i do not trust him to talk to Alex again in a manner that is not appropriate with him being married and that i would rather him not talk to her right now since i know she has feelings for him. So as far as i know he has not been talking to
her since I last caught him doing so and he lied to me about it. I gave him the ultimatum either he talking stops talking to her or i am out of here and no coming back this time. SO we will how long this lasts this time.

well this past weekend was great. Matt and I went out on Friday night for his class reunion. We all met for drink and hor derves. It was fun. He got to see a couple of people from his class. We didn't stay out to long as his mom was watching the kids.

Saturday we went to the counrty fair with the kids for a bit. We had fun walking around and talking to a bunch of people he knew form school. I got a bunch of books. They were first selling them 50 cents a book for soft cover. so i got about 6 of them and then they were selling them $1 a bag. so we went back and filled up a bag of books. We basically got kids books and some for hubby and I.

We came home from the fair and then we got ready for the dinner that my MIL paid for so we could could go. It was suppose to end at 9pm but we were the last to leave at around 10pm. WELL it was his whole class that left at 10. ( the 16 of us that were there, 8 alumni and their spouses). We came home while the rest of them went out somewhere else afterwards.

On sunday we just mainly did house work around the house and enjoyed eah others company with the kids.

Yesterday was back to the same old same old. Hubby had work and school and I had the house to look after as well as back to school for me. THe kids had school yesterday as well.

They go today and then tomorrow and are off till monday. Teacher inservices on thursday and friday this week. so i will be trying be hardest to get all my school work done asap this class.

well that was my week in review.

well this week seemed to fly by for me. I was on break from school between classes. I did do a good in my first online class. I got a final grade of a "B". that was with handing in a project a week late.

THe new dog is doing ok but he chewws on stuff and he has went in the house a couple of times but i did scare him with the sweeper the once.

This weekend we are going ot be taking the boys to hubby's class reunion/ county fair at the school he went to. Plus my mother in law has paid for hubby and i to go out for drinks and hor derves tonight from 7-9. plus we get a dinner tomorrow night as well i think or a lunchoen not sure what it is. but she had decided to pay for it all for us so we can have some time out alone again. She is even going to babysit the boys for us as well.

So hubby and I are looking forward to it. we have had a busy week but mainly him. he had school two night this week and didn;t get hime till late and then he had to work late one other night. then on wednesday night i ended up being out till almost 10 with my mom and zach. I took him shopping for new clothes and ten my mom took me out to dinner afterwards.

so 4 nights this week hubby and i have not had too much time togethert with each other at night. by the time he got home form school and i got back from schooping we were all tired. so we barely stayed up to talk and just bein each other company. we basically went right to bed soon after he got home and all.

So I hope you all had a good week and enjoy your weekend as well. I will try to get in and post ove the weekend and maybe even add a picture or two of the county fair with hte kids having a good time.

new poem

Ok here is something i have not done in awhile. Write a poem of sorts.
Having my marriage almost fall completely apart made me realize a few things even though we are having rough spots.




Sitting here all alone
thinking of you

wishing you were here
to wrap your arms around
me and hold me close

To feel you touch upon my breast
missing how good the caress is

your lips upon my neck
slowly placing soft kisses
as you send shudders of
sensations through me.

wanting, waiting, hoping
for that moment of desire
to wash through me.
letting me know
that we are right for each other
after all.