i know it has been awhile since my last blog but things have been really busy here lately. I am seeing my 16 year old son again after 6 1/2 -7 years. Well i have also been talking to my mom and dad again. I took my mom to her doctor's appointment and I hae even brought her laundry home to do it as well. The good thing is that she is paying me to do it all. So on top of all my school work for my classes that started on monday. Michael and Philip started school on monday as well. Michael did really well Philip cried a bit on tuesday when i droppped him off. When i went to gp pick them up I had Zach with me and Philip was so proud of himself that he walked down the hall to the door without crying and with Michael's teacher that he had in 1st grade.

So I had a talk with my mom about zach with him always waning me to get him everyday and i told her that if I did n;t have school i'd gladly have him everyday during the day but i need to get my school work done so i can't get him everyday. but i will get him as much as i can as long as i have time to do my school work as well.

Jacob has been a little "stinker" in a sense. He warmed up to my mom and dad very fast. He even asked to go see grandpa yesterday after i dropped philip off at school.

So i can say that things are going good with me and my parents at this time and with matt and I with all the kids and school.

Hope everyone else has been doing alright and has a good week in case I do not get a chance to get in here for a couple of days. As soon as i Upload my pictures in my computer i will add a few of the kids from their first day of school.

i took zachary home last night at around 9pm. as i was droppign him off i saw my dad. i was a little nervous at first but he waved to me and he even came over to the car and was talking to me a bit. he was telling me that they knew zach was with me all day and they ( him and my mom) have no problem with it. They left it up to him ( zach).

So when i went to leave i stopped byt he roomthey are staying in to see my mom ( yes leslie, i know what you are thinking, (WHAT) ). Well it turned out that i did not get home myself till about 2 am. I had michael and philip with me as well. they were playing around in the room and then thye didn;t want to leave unless i brought zach back with me.

well my mom and i were talking and i found out she has COPD and the first time she ws in the hospital she ws in a coma for 8 days. dad and her said that if she would of waited one more day she would of died. ( now i know i always said i didn't care about how she was doing and that if she dropped in front of me saying she was dying and needed my help i would just keep walking)
well i do not feel that way now. actually i am not sure how i feel. somehow i guess you could say that a lot of the anger in no longer there. not sure why but it is not.

my mom has to be on oxygen 24/7 and she can't go to many places at all. she can;t even walk over the the resturant that is like right next door. ( the friendy's ---- leslie).

i found out my dad ended up having to take a $5 paycut where he works or be out of a job completely. didn't get the whole story there as to why. Just something about he had to have surgery on his hands and couldn;t go back to the same position he was at.

so when i left zach wanted to spend the night here and my mom told him no not tonight you know i can not be here alone and since we do not know if uncle brad will be back i need you to stay here. she told him he could spend the night tomorrow night ( meaning tonight)
so michael and philip are all excited about it and matt is even ok with it. so i will have my first overnight visist with him tonight.

i know this blog is long but i just need to get this out and off my chest. so thanks for reaing it all the way to the end . I will blog more later tonight and post any updates as to this post itself.

have a good day. i am going to go get my massage now.

today i was a little early and got some things done before i headed out hte door to the store to pick up a few things. While iwas out zachary called me to come pick him up so he could come over for a visit again. that was about 12:30 and he is still now at 8:30. told me he doesn't have to be "home" till 9:30.

I just have a alot of thoughts running through my head. Like how can he call a hotel room home. i know he has been living there for about a year or so now but still. I mean all he eats is Tv dinners or anything that you can make in a microwave. or he said he eats at friendy's once in awhile.

So we had hot dogs and hamburgers with french fries for dinner tonight. he wants to come over tomorrow as well. I mean i have no problem with him coming over but i do have school work i would like to start on before the first official day sinc emy classes are only 5 weeks long. I do not really want to sit here and do it while he is here visiting and make him feel like i am ingorning him and that i do not want to spend time with him or talk to him.

i know the boys like spending time with him expecially Michael. Michael asked when he could spend the night already and i told him we had to take it slow.

he is actually getting along wiht matt very well as of now. There is just one little thing that bothers me wiht him and that is he has a tendency to yell when he talks. He talks really loud for some reason. but i guess i can try to get him to tone it down a bit at least while he is here anyway. ( i'll just have to keep on him to tone it done a bit)

I figures i'd post now so that way when i get back from taking him "home" i can maybe sit down and read a bit of my school book since i have three chapters to read and a discussion question to answer that has to be 3-4 paragraphs and a 3-4 page paper to write all due by next sunday at midnight. ( like i have to tell you leslie) .

At least when school starts on monday i will have plenty of time to read and do my work. Since the boys will be in school i already told zachary that i will not be able to get him during the day for a while just till i get the hang of this schooling thing again.

well i hope you all have a good night