first night of counceling, and an update

well as most of you can tell i have been away for quite some time. i have been going through a rough time here at home with my marriage again. we decided to go ahead and seek outside help this time. we are both in agreement that about seeing a marriage counseling. but the place we go to calls it marriage therapy.

It felt good to go lat night and get out of things out in the open to hear from someone else that we are not the only couple that have the same type of problems, and hopefully with some help we can work them out and move on.

As far as everything else in my life. things have been going alright. I graduated college with my associates degree in may of this year. I am also getting ready to go back for my bachelor's degree in a month. this time i am going to be attending a "regular" school. I will still be taking my classes online they just won;t be accelerated classes that last only 5 weeks long. Taking those classes like that was very stressful on my with the three kids at home at times.

As far as the kids go they are doing alright even with the tension between Matt and I. Philip is going into 1st grade and he is excited and keeps asking when school starts again. Michael is going to be repeating the second grade as we found out he has some learning disabilities and he is almost a year behind on his math & reading as well as being slight dyslexic. They are going to work on him with all this stuff this school year as well as Matt and I helping him at home.
Jacob turned three this past June. He is getting very big and he is actually pretty smart for his age at least i think he is. he knows most of his ABC's already and some of his colors, and he can count up to 7 already i believe it is. He can hit a baseball with throwing it up it them air and swinging a bat all on his own.

well that is about it.

I'm alive and here

well i know it has been a few months since i been here to post, but i have been reading all yours jsut so you know. Thing have been hetic here the past couple of months. School has been a little rough on me. Classes are only 5 weeks long and i have 2 at a time. I am glad to say that i have three classes left till i get my associates degree. I am on spring break this week so i am trying to catch up a lot of things. I have been cleaning out the house. we have gotten rid of so much stuff i can not believe it. I am surprised that the garbage men have not said anythingj about how much has been out there the past two weeks.

I have even gone through my closet and got rid of aot of my clothes that do not fit and took them to a donation drop box. SO far I took 6 bags of clothes ( mine, hubby's, and the kids).

The boys are doing good. Michael turned 8 and Philip turned 6 in Feb. Jacob will be 3 in June.
We are planning a trip to NC to see a friend of ours over the Easter Break next month, just not sure yet if it is definate. Then in June we will go on a regular week long vacatioon to the poconos.

Ans yes I will be in School during all of this becasue after I finish my associates Degree in May i have another week off before i start in with Bachlor's Degree classes. At least these classes are only one at a time , but yet they are still 5 weeks long.

So I am going to try to post here a least once a week for now on. I am usually on facebook all the time so if you ever want to know how i am doing inbetween post feel free to find me there.

I am Still Alive...

well it has been a long time since my last blog. but we have been doign alright. the kids were sick again over the holidays but we are all better now.

well first let me say that thanksgiving was good and went alright. then right after that is when michael and jacob got sick.

the finally got off the antibotics on christmas day. so we had a nice christmas. Kids enjoyed themselves very much and got way to much stuff from everyone.

As for school for me i ended up having to repeat my two classes form last term. I am retaking these classes because i ended up without internet for almost 2 weeks if not a little longer, and since my classes are only 5 week classes it was hard to catch up. So i am taking computer applications and management and leaderhip classes over again this term.

I did however get set for my bachlor's degree and am set to start in june of this year with classes. Once i get into them i will only have one class at a time to take instead of the two.

So now i am preparing for birthdays now that am coming up soon.

but other than that i have been doing alright.

i know it has been awhile since my last blog but things have been really busy here lately. I am seeing my 16 year old son again after 6 1/2 -7 years. Well i have also been talking to my mom and dad again. I took my mom to her doctor's appointment and I hae even brought her laundry home to do it as well. The good thing is that she is paying me to do it all. So on top of all my school work for my classes that started on monday. Michael and Philip started school on monday as well. Michael did really well Philip cried a bit on tuesday when i droppped him off. When i went to gp pick them up I had Zach with me and Philip was so proud of himself that he walked down the hall to the door without crying and with Michael's teacher that he had in 1st grade.

So I had a talk with my mom about zach with him always waning me to get him everyday and i told her that if I did n;t have school i'd gladly have him everyday during the day but i need to get my school work done so i can't get him everyday. but i will get him as much as i can as long as i have time to do my school work as well.

Jacob has been a little "stinker" in a sense. He warmed up to my mom and dad very fast. He even asked to go see grandpa yesterday after i dropped philip off at school.

So i can say that things are going good with me and my parents at this time and with matt and I with all the kids and school.

Hope everyone else has been doing alright and has a good week in case I do not get a chance to get in here for a couple of days. As soon as i Upload my pictures in my computer i will add a few of the kids from their first day of school.

Today I had an intake appointment for Philip at Kidspeace outpatient about him not sleeping right at night and his outburst with his temper. He was daignosed with Disrubtive behavior disorder before and we have done the wrap around services which incluse a behavior specialist, mobile therapist, and a theraputic staff specialist. so now we are going to look at medication to help go with that. he gets so frustrated so easily and wehn things get really bad he breaks his own toys and really gets agressive with us all. I want ot stop it before Jacob starts in with it as a learned behavior and since philip is starting kindergarten i am getting concerned since he has to have things right away wehn he askes for something or else he go into a raging fit.

During the intake michael acted up so bad the director had to come and take him out of the roomjsut so i could answer the questions. i ended up there over an hour and a half. After the intake was over i went by the park where zachary had said he goes but he was not there and i still have not heard back from him as to when he wants to meet if he still does.

After I cam home from all that I logged into my school and started going over all my school stuff. I got my book today which happens to be an e-book so it is all online. I actually printed out a chapter or two to start with soi can take it with me in the car when the kids start school.
I then had my open house at 8pm tonight. so matt made dinner and kept the kids quiet for me which shocked me. i was expecting the kids to run around and being loud while it ws going on and they weren't.

I actually met someone in my class that is not that far from me. so we had exchanged emails and cell phone numbers. the funny thing is that her name is JODI. so we re hoping that we end up in the same group for our group project.

so that was my day. Tomorrow i have a chiropractor appointment in the morning and my MRI at 7pm so depending on how i am afterwards i will blog about how it went.

well i hope you all had a good day and a good night.

well just wanted to let you all know that i did not hear back from zachary as to when we are to meet if at all. but the rest of my night did go alright. i made another stop at the chiropractor for my back and hip and i go back on wed. and fri. so now i go mon, wed, and fri till further notice and get a massage once a week as well.

i should be getting my school books tomorrow so i am all excited about that. i can actually get a head start on reading the material and looking over everything. so i am going to try to get as much done around the house as possible tomorrow as well in between doctor appointements and going to the store.

the kids got to play a little in their pool for a bit today as well. we started tehm back on their routine for school as far as bedtime but it was tough going tonight but hopefully they will be better tomorrow night.

I still have a bunch of stuff to get htem for school but have not enough money to get it all right now. so michael is using his pack pack from last year once again for now. he really needs a new one but i have to wait till next friday (the 29th) to get him one. so he will have to go a week with his one from last year. just hoping it holds up. it is almost ripped through on the bottom.

well that is about it. I am going to head off to bed so i can get up early tomorrow hopefully.

hope everyone had a good day.